Every day we have lots of opportunities and this is another word that gets used a lot. Recently I have been thinking a lot about my writing, I am considering doing a journalism course so that I can do some local reporting and get an 'in' to the publishing business, make some contacts and maybe make some inroads to getting a decent book deal for the forthcoming bestseller residing in my brain! Frustration hits though s you need to do a fair bit of 'on the job' training and whilst this can be arranged the ability to only be around for school hours proves to be a bit of a sticking point. At some point I will consider getting a minder in but at the moment I love being able to be with the kids and pick them up from school.
This may seem like an opportunity missed but in the end I decided that I am still young enough to persue my dreams when the kids are a bit bigger, I can still write at home which is convenient as I can do it around the kids and their holidays. I must admit to missing teaching a bit now but even so I don't regret the decision to be a stay at home mum most of the time. There are moments when I wish I could have a little more time to myself, to have somewhere to go to on a regular basis that isn't home and have goals to work to. I got as far as making a sort of timetable listing all the things I wanted to achieve, it lasted for 24 hours, something else needed doing that took precedence.
The most frustrating thing is that there are lots of ideas I want to write down and develop, several of them have gone into my notebook for later use, I am going to try and write every day but this can be difficult, school runs and clubs, housework and a three year old to entertain until September as well as the school holidays mean that life can be busy and for the moment I have availed myself of the opportunity to be with the kids.
The opportunities that are open to me are many, some involve work but many of us give them up for what we hope might be the greater good, however come September I will be taking the opportunity that 2 childfree hours gives me to do all sorts of things and watch out in 2012 when I have three kids at school all day, that book deal will be done!